Morons
2025-08-23
I'm physically handicapped (lore drop). That means that I have caregivers working around me.
My god, do I have a knack for hiring morons. I've only ever had maybe a handful out a couple of dozens "employees" that I felt okay with.
From the small stuff, such as shutting doors and putting back things where they belong after they been used, To the big, I actually have people that act as their job actually is to merely be a witness to my struggles instead of helping me with them
I know that a lot of it is my own fault though. I have a real hard time communicating with others about my wants and needs. At this point I've built up way too much resentment that if I were to attempt to say something I'd probably just end up hurling some harsh insult their way. Who knows, maybe I'd get beaten up in response, deservedly so.
— why yes, I am scared of conflicts, how'd you know?
I'd better just stay quiet.
In someways I've become a "boss" against my will. I just don't have it in me. My best guess is that it's due to a mixture of how I was raised, my depression and social anxiety.
It'd possibly ease the pain if I had the salary of an actual boss, Instead of, you know, nothing at all.